I’ve been talking with a couple of friends about the frustration we feel around our own neurodivergence. Nobody else’s, just each of us with our own flavour of it. With a late realisation that you’re one of the people whose brain works in a certain way, can come a pathway through emotions that seem to affect a lot of us:
Yes yes a thousand times yes! That’s exactly how I felt when I was diagnosed (and still do)...”I have ADHD, so now what?”
I’ve had therapists say “it’s OK to lose interest & move to something else,” but my whole life I’ve rarely/never followed through on things. My parents stopped letting me join clubs, classes, teams because we always ended up arguing when I wanted to quit...yet again.
I feel like I needed (and still do) someone to “make me” follow through, but my parents didn’t & it turns out now I am that someone & she sucks at that.
BUT I’m also learning about consistency & doing things I said I would even when I don’t want to (i.e. sucking it up & doing it anyway). I’m finding some relief & comfort & stability in that currently & trying to apply it to different areas to see how it sticks. 🤞
Thanks for the conversation Jo. And congrats on another post written & published...I see you & I appreciate you showing up & sharing.
I'm not ND but I relate to being a changeaholic. I mean, I just changed the name of my blog, again! So much here resonates, especially with regards to addiciton. That's pretty much how I feel about my obesity and repeated attempts to lose the damn weight. Which actually, unlike ND, is something I *can* change. Yet I still struggle with it for similar reasons you list here. I think you're onto something here, that breakthrough is tangible and hopeful. xo
When's the next meeting for the CAs? (Read: Changeaholic Anonymous) I need to attend. :) All jokes aside, a lot resonated. I can change things on the daily and just run around in circles and make myself feel guilty for constantly changing my mind, or even as little as often I want to show up to my Substack. Why can't I just stick with certain consistency, I keep asking myself. It is almost as if committing to something and setting it in stone blows out the flame that was burning with passion yesterday. I keep telling myself it is not normal. And then I read about my Gene Keys and it is inviting me to let go of what I think is normal. Even normal is relative, right? All I know is that the more I've tried to fit into these neat boxes society provides us, the more I have wanted to rebel.
Yes yes a thousand times yes! That’s exactly how I felt when I was diagnosed (and still do)...”I have ADHD, so now what?”
I’ve had therapists say “it’s OK to lose interest & move to something else,” but my whole life I’ve rarely/never followed through on things. My parents stopped letting me join clubs, classes, teams because we always ended up arguing when I wanted to quit...yet again.
I feel like I needed (and still do) someone to “make me” follow through, but my parents didn’t & it turns out now I am that someone & she sucks at that.
BUT I’m also learning about consistency & doing things I said I would even when I don’t want to (i.e. sucking it up & doing it anyway). I’m finding some relief & comfort & stability in that currently & trying to apply it to different areas to see how it sticks. 🤞
Thanks for the conversation Jo. And congrats on another post written & published...I see you & I appreciate you showing up & sharing.
I'm not ND but I relate to being a changeaholic. I mean, I just changed the name of my blog, again! So much here resonates, especially with regards to addiciton. That's pretty much how I feel about my obesity and repeated attempts to lose the damn weight. Which actually, unlike ND, is something I *can* change. Yet I still struggle with it for similar reasons you list here. I think you're onto something here, that breakthrough is tangible and hopeful. xo
When's the next meeting for the CAs? (Read: Changeaholic Anonymous) I need to attend. :) All jokes aside, a lot resonated. I can change things on the daily and just run around in circles and make myself feel guilty for constantly changing my mind, or even as little as often I want to show up to my Substack. Why can't I just stick with certain consistency, I keep asking myself. It is almost as if committing to something and setting it in stone blows out the flame that was burning with passion yesterday. I keep telling myself it is not normal. And then I read about my Gene Keys and it is inviting me to let go of what I think is normal. Even normal is relative, right? All I know is that the more I've tried to fit into these neat boxes society provides us, the more I have wanted to rebel.